Friends...


They will always be there when you need them. Friends are everywhere. Some of them come and go. Some of them, stay with you. When you are in trouble, they will be there for you. Even if you could hardly hang out with them, whenever they know you are in trouble, they welcome you with open arms.

This post will be about a personal experience that I will want to share with one of my friend in Brunei (initialed as 'T'). The old readers may already know what had happened and my old friends definitely knew my past too. So, if you guys wants to continue reading, it might be a waste of time.

The purpose of writing this is to hope that it can help her a bit, cause I know how hurt it was the moment when you just broke up. The transition for you to heal requires you time and support. Hopefully, this will help her. Even I never meet her, after all we both are girls, and we chatted in MSN, therefore, grew the intention to help her. Hopefully she will somehow motivated.

Before I am with Maxxx, I used to fall for a guy so much, who happen to be my ex. What worst is, my best friend took him away from me. It hurts. REALLY HURTS. Especially who is doing that is your best friend.

Technically, he is my first love. I was hurt and was single for more than a year. Stupid thing to do. In the end, until today, we do not talk anymore. What worst is, he denies of knowing me. But, I never care cause people knew how he used to like me and chase me. So, just let it be.

What is most stupid is, I do not move on in that one year. I gave him a promise that just in case he and my best friend don't work well, then, i ll welcome him back. STUPID... I WAS AN IDIOT. Everytime, I saw him with my best friend, it hurts me so badly.

I was overwhelmed by my emotions until I even manage to compose a song for them, which a lot of people like - Cinta 3 Segi. After all those sacrifices done, in the end, I end up with someone else.

During the time of my sad period, he do not care how I was and how I have been doing, after all we broke up - not related anymore. But, my friends are there to cheer me up. I remembered I used to cry a lot... Lai Ying Chai, Andy Tsai, Adeline Chen, Pang Qi Li, Adila, Hafiza (mostly my classmates) Ally, Timothy are the one there listening to my problems.

I keep on making myself busy that year. The busiest year ever. Trying to achieve the best for myself, to show to him that I m doing well (which I am actually not). Technically, when humans are trying to show the world that they are okay, that means, they are not okay. (T, your ex is showing the world that he is ok, technically something wrong with it. He moved on too fast, something wrong with it.. For Sure... Besides, dont need to think about him too much).

For one year, I was hurt. The worst thing still happen, I like a guy (nicknamed "orange", to keep his privacy, after all these are past that I am talking about). But then, we dont end up together. I came to Curtin for him, in the end, I am with Maxxx.

I was a very screw up when I came to Curtin, people have to take care of me and worst, I dont even let them, which technically drag them into my problem.

After "orange", then I like another guy "Grape". "Grape" does not know that I like him, maybe he does, his friends told him. But, I never admit to him. Then, I screw his life up, somehow..

Why have I been doing all these? Cause I wanted to show to my ex that I m doing well. But, in the end I screw up. All my friends got drag into my problems.

All these while, there is this one guy, which we called each other marshmallow, who is in Perth waiting, but, in the end, we still dont end up together. A guy that is really good to me that even Maxxx admitted that he is jealous of him.

Ok.. I guess I strayed away too much.. anyway, the most important thing is your friends.

Last time, I just stayed in our own world. Neglecting all my friends as my ex dont like them. But, when I am in trouble, they are the one who supported me.

Even, when I am in trouble and needed someone to take care of me, since I just move to Curtin and live without parents, Baboon, Leslie, Nixon and the gang are the one who helped me.

Maxxx and the people in 3571 taught me how to be a drinker and not a drunker. Then, I slowly adapt myself again with Leslie and the gang and make sure that I am still alright when I m drinking with them cause they are "kaki botol".

Your friends will always be there for you. Keep themselves updated about you even you are not by their side. and they will give you the best wishes anyone can ever give.

Anyway, Baboon & Nixon, I know you guys dont read blogs... but, thanks a lot for your words... "Fitria you have grew up, we are happy to see you with Maxxx than being with "orange"." I still remember that you told me that during Azfar House Party.

Recalling the past back, made me miss all my friends so much right now, from 3571 to Music Society to my GRSS school friends. DAMN... YOU GUYS ARE ALL SO NICE TO ME!!!!! THANKS....

Anyway, T... be strong... you can do it.. I did it... Find your friends... Currently, they are those who understand you most now... Even if your heart tells that you need your ex most right now, the real thing is... you need all your friends right now... you have the whole group with you... From M to E to etc.... Take care..

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