Fitrianoviani Ling

PLEASE vote FOR CHARITY

2010-11-11T22:39:00.003+08:00

Well, in this world, there are so much people in need.. If I am a billionaire.. I seriously contribute my money for the sake of charity.. for the good of mankind..

But, too bad, I m not rich.... Therefore, I seriously need your support to help me, to help my friend, to vote.. your vote will help to save these people's life..

Right now, we can't go that far.. can't help those all over the world. But, please help me vote for my friend, in this Digi Youth thing... that money will be used to help the Myanmar kids in need..

Myanmar @ Burma, had been controlled by the Military Junta.. and Human Rights violation is really happening there.. they need your help..

For more information on the human rights thing, please visit: http://www.partnersworld.org/download/4Qtr07us.pdf

This is what I need you to help me do and I really appreciate your help:

please kindly vote for Digi Youth - under student without borders on humanity.. let's help the needies.. thanks ^.~ just one click, u .........can save lives.. Cheers ^.~ and help to spread the link too.. THANKS A LOT !! YOUR VOTE I MEAN !!! I WILL APPRECIATE IT A LOT... HEHE

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Erm.. how can these people who do not complete their higher education is still rich?

2010-11-09T20:28:00.006+08:00

Now, this questions comes up after we were discussing on this topic too during the dinner.. seriously, even Mark Zuckerberg drop out of university.. and he is making millions ....

Mark Zuckerberg - he is not that cute... but, he is rich ...

Surprisingly, despite that there are so many successful people who do not complete their higher education, but, as for me, I want to complete them.. at least it's a jackpot for me, if I return and come back with Phd, or Prof.. haha..

But, I notice that, well, in Unimas, you see there are a lot of lecturers with Prof and Dr... but, are they rich?? seems like normal only leh..

ok.. so do education really determine your wealth? I doubt it.. I met people who is rich, but then, do not complete his higher education.. and he can spend around RM 150 k a night.. ok.. of course it is converted to RM... when can I meet my super rich guy??

or even better, when can I be that rich? If I am rich, can I be as smart too? I wanna have the title Dr minimum, but, I wanna be rich too.. so much to study if wanna take PHD - permanent head damage ... haha.. but, I want to be smart and rich ... so have to have Dr + $$$ = will this be too much to dream of??? hahha

ok exam on the 11th.. FRENCH LANGUAGE... hopefully I'll do it well... cheers..

I'm so excited !!!

2010-11-06T07:27:00.003+08:00

I am so excited for the movie marathon.. Excited of getting RM 200 cosmetic vouchers !!!

And very curious on what movies that they are showing.. The weather was good this morning.... :) better than yesterday... too bad, I need to keep my energy for the 24 hours straight movie marathon...

i was walking yesterday morning, it was hujan "gerimis" ... but, nothing to worry since I have my jacket with me... I know that i wont be around during the evening, that is why, force myself to walk, despite that it was raining outside..

Maybe, because of the tiring and stressful days, that I had been having these few days, I feel a bit sick yesterday night.. But, I am all GOOD now.. hahah..

Wish me all the best in this movie marathon competition... TAKE CARE !!! CHEERS ^.~

DIGI MOVIE MARATHON

2010-11-04T17:02:00.003+08:00

I m going to register for the Digi Movie Marathon soon at The Spring.. hehe.. now, waiting for Kim Seng @ Fitri, to get ready... but it's already 4.52 pm .. and Tina just text me saying that, there are over 45 people queuing up already... i guess everyone is just so excited for this movie marathon.

I wonder why is his toilets always occupied.. Fitri @ Kim Seng will always wait for his turn.. He'll be saying "I am still waiting for my turn to use the toilet" .. Freaks me out sometimes, since, I, as a girl, do not have such problems...

I was so excited to go earlier, but, this sudden downpour .. raining so heavily, makes me so demotivated to go out.. Feel like staying at home, and watch movie.. But, I m so well-prepared to go... I am all dressed-up... Just that, I feel lazy to make up.. planning to just go with the simple bare look...

I hate it when it's raining here in Uni .. the rain is so heavy... wind is so strong ... umbrellas been spoiled so many times, until I got fed up buying umbrella.. SIGH ...

I really hate heavy rain near the evening... they should rain at night .... well, if there is no students walking to classes, I rather it rain during the afternoon... since, it's so hot.. BUT, praying for this will only trouble the others, whose class is during this hours.. so, yeah, should just rain at night after my walk...

Raining during the evening - I will have to sacrifice my walk, which means, no calories burning activity (unless, I am married, and I can do sexercise... haha.. joking). When No calories burning, you will gain weight .... and the chain goes on.. SIGH !!!

I wish I am STORM.. one of the protagonist in X-men.. Since I was young, STORM has been my favorite character cause she can control the weather.. I think during the next Halloween, I should dress up like STORM...

I think, I should not waste my time .. better gives a little bit color to my face... - blusher, eye shadow, mascara, eyeliner, etc..

Heute ist Mittwoch - Today is Wednesday

2010-11-03T07:41:00.004+08:00

Well, while waiting for the water to boil, for my morning cup of coffee, why not I just blog about something.. hmmmph...

the sun outside is so bright now.. time passes really fast.. sigh... but, it's good actually, since I am so eager and CANT wait to graduate.... :)

It is already Wednesday.. the middle of the week.

If in German, Wednesday is called Mittwoch, which mean, Middle-week... and yet, I feel so NOT motivated to sit for final exams.. not even ready for finals.... since I had been wasting my time... SIGH !!!!

It is suppose to be study week (which means only for you to revise), but, I am still not done with my work yet.. Handwritten notes, and extra credits for my OB Case study 3... Sigh...

Started a bit of reading on Monday, on some of my subjects.. and was helping Fitri’s out for his management assignment..

well, in Curtin, study week will be called Revision week.. haha.. Revision week is the right term since everyone is doing their revision for finals ..

Well, guess I should start with my work soon... what a bright morning today... I should have walk, but, nah.... assignments.. and extra workloads to be settled.. Just going to walk this evening around west campus.

A girl’s fantasy

2010-11-01T07:32:00.006+08:00

A girl’s fantasy- TO HOOK UP with $$ RICH $$ and LOADED GUY

If a girl rejected you because you are not rich, you still have no right to call her a "gold digger"... Why? Cause everyone needs MONEY to SURVIVE. You should blame yourself, for not being rich enough to maintain her.

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In today’s global competitive world, it is hard to find true love. Everything needs money.

I remember when I was younger, how I used to fantasize of being with my prince charming “who rides on a white horse” and I’ll be riding the horse with him. Yes, the fantasy from the fairy tales.
But, as I grew up, things change. There is no such thing as prince charming who is very good looking, and yada yada yada..

Well, I can’t deny that in today’s world, EVERYTHING needs MONEY. For you to shower, you need money. Even to get yourself an Identity, you have to pay RM 10 to get your IC done... HAHA.. :)

Last time, you may be able to depend on “LOVE”. BUT, NOW, MONEY is your most loyal friend.

MONEY, is always there when you need them.
MONEY will not runaway if you just leave them and safe-keep it.
MONEY will not have any affair with other people.
MONEY dont give you attitude.

YOU know what is the BEST THING?

MONEY gives you happiness. AND THAT IS WHY, MOST GIRLS TODAY RUN AFTER only LOADED AND RICH GUYS.

And those RICH GUYS are mostly “quite old”. BUT, who CARES... they ARE RICH... they HAVE MONEY !!!!

Ten years back, you will only see ASIANS that date OLD RICH GUYS. But now, if you travel as far as I do, even in Germany, the western, they date RICH guys too. Why? Because money is everything to them. Money makes you happy !!!

Even for me, I realize that I am not that very pretty girl here (NOT in MALAYSIA or ASIA) – It’s just not my market here, BUT, I know my market is somewhere else. Despite all this, I still can be very choosy in picking the guy that I want to be with.

First and most importantly, they guy has to be rich, and I can travel to a lot of places with his money. Secondly, he must be nice to me. Thirdly, he must be educated. Fourthly, he must be presentable looking... and the list goes on.

Yes, I did put the kindness of the guy to be second on my list... As for me, and as for many other guys, it does not matter whether the guy is loyal or kind to you, just as long as they give you money, ENOUGH MONEY to spend, then, everything will be fine. GUY will still be A GUY, they have that naughtiness and always wanting young girls. You can’t control them or stopped them from meeting girls, cause no matter what you do, its their nature, and they still going to do it, WITH or WITHOUT your CONSENT.

If they give you money, use that money to groom yourself up, and make yourself looks pretty. At least, you have your pride back – you may get other guys.. who are better than your current guy. So GIRLS, LOVE YOURSELF more than YOU LOVE YOUR GUY..

MONEY ... MONEY... MONEY ... “Even if you are old, you drive good cars, you have lots of money, you give me money, I’ll date you”.... that is what most girls will say, and I am one of them. “NO MONEY, NO TALK”...

Landing on LOADED and RICH guys (despite of their age), have become a trend done by many women. Even in TV series – i.e. Gossip Girl, The Hills, etc ... Those girls are after high-income dudes that can guarantees their lives and give them money. It’s the girls fantasy to hook up with rich guys – ask most of them, and they will answer “YES, to fall in love with a RICH guy, is way easier that falling in love with the SMART guy, or the POOR guy”.

A guy has to be loaded – money to buy cars; money to bring the girls out; money to book “hotels” ... (ok, be open minded... this is happening even here in Malaysia).

NOW, last time girls will after those ambitious moneymakers who are SMART.. BUT, today, MBA holders or even PHD holders, are not as rich as these young guys ... HEHEH.. so no point, dating those people who hold such a high post in education – MBA or PHD ... GO AFTER RICH GUY(S)..

Something I adapt from the internet – there are so much RICH young CELEBS right now... other than that, yes, I also admire Mark Zuckerberg, 23, founder of Facebook who already earns $1.5 billion. But, to date these kind of young and rich people, it is almost IMPOSSIBLE for me.. Even though, I applied “The Secret – Law of Attractions” everyday, I doubt I’ll get them.

Now, reasons why I date RICH guy(s):

(1) He gives you money – travelling, shopping, gambling, eating, living expenses, JUST ASK FOR IT and of course with a LITTLE SOFT TOUCH and PERSUASSION, YOU’LL GET IT !!!

(2) Travelling with them, or even if you want to go further, or even to bring you out for lunch, they will bring you to good high-class places and hotels – with proper and high quality service waiters/waitress, refilling your wine glass whenever it is finishing.. WOW.. It is really nice... and YOU ARE EATING GOOD FOOD..

(3) RICH guy, they are really polite on the table, and that is why, it’s nice going out with them.. they will SMILE at you most of the time, and of course, you will SMILE back to them.. It’s really SWEET.

(4) Now, this is the cool part, THEIR RIDES !!! AWESOME !!! For someone who loves to sit in a good cars, it is important for guys to actually drive a car that can impress me.. HAHAH... A girl like me, who wears high heels most of the time, CANT sit on a BIKE !!! haha..

Dating a RICH guy, you need to actually tolerate a lot.. Well, they are extremely nice people - Polite and LOVING, but, HEY, you are not the ONLY ONE who is after them, there are so much more.. SO YOU HAVE TO COMPETE FAIRLY WITH OPEN HEART. Be understanding. Seduce them, but NEVER show to them that you actually need them.

If you want to SHOW someone that you REALLY NEED A GUY, find a GUY friend, it is OK, to show them that you need them.. BUT never to these RICH people.. BUT, you DONT be too UNAVAILABLE too, because, they will get sick chasing after you, and they’ll find someone else.. DUH, they have the money.. SO BE FLEXIBLE ....

P.S:
If you are still looking for TRUE LOVE, all the best !!! It is compatibility that actually guarantees your happiness. BE UNDERSTANDING and STRIVE for the best for yourself.. GO FIND A RICH GUY if NECESSARY.. DON’ T waste your time for guys..

Cause, when GIRLS get older, THEY ROT... hard to find a “womanizer”...

BUT, for guys, EVEN if they are OLD, if they have money, FLOWERS will still come to them.. hahah

THINK ABOUT IT !!!

Exams COMING SOON!!! But, still busy finishing assignments.

2010-04-16T11:21:00.004+08:00

I do not understand why.....

Now, I just love to delay my works and do things last minute.

As compared to last time, I finished my work way earlier than the deadline.

Sigh… I'm getting sick with my life… Can't wait to graduate, and get over with assignments.

Hopefully, I will get good marks for my assignments and EXAMS.. All the best I wish myself. Sigh !!!

MY NEW FRIENDS !!! BACK to MALAYSIA.

2010-01-04T18:16:00.006+08:00

I had finally returned from my long journey, from GERMANY, back to my lovely country of MALAYSIA..

This is a response to my previous post of Goodbye Casino Bad Homburg dated Thursday 25th June, 2009.

Well, I finally got the names for the dealers that I previously described, which so unfortunate, I do not know their names (some of them).

I do not expect that I will return to Germany sooner than what I had planned. What I planned is that I will be visiting Germany again in summer, but then, I end up visiting Germany in winter... therefore, I was enjoying my first White Christmas - with snow... HAHAHAHAH...

Well it is nice actually to have a white christmas, but it is cold.. I pity the Australians, who have to celebrate Christmas during summer.. Furthermore, in Perth, there is no snows... HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, I am really happy for being here in Germany, even though, my presence in Germany is due to unexpected circumstances, and a very last minute plan. SUPER DUPER LAST MINUTE !!! Thanks to my Dad, who keep changing his mind, and never have things fix... He pissed me off sometimes, disappoint me badly.. but, what can I say, you have to respect the elders.

Anyway, back to the dealer's name ... HEHEHEHEH :)

The dealer who keep asking my phone number, who is a LIBRA guy, can speak Spanish fluently and also among my best Roulette dealer - His name is Mr BERNARD !!! If I spell his name correctly. Well, I gave him my number and went to visit him already in the Casino.. so I had fulfilled my promise..

The dealer who have that Richard Gere look with a sweet wink, caught my attention and always touches my heart with his charming smile, who is an ARIES guy and also among my best Roulette dealer - Mr LOTHAR. He is so CHARMING, NICE TEETH he has.. I WANT THAT TEETH TOO !!! I will NOT STOP smiling if I have his teeth.. He hehehe.

The guy with 2 white dogs, unfortunately he is not working there anymore.. TOO BAD !!! He gave his email to my mom, my mom asked me to email him, but, due to my hectic and packed schedule, I LOST HIS EMAIL ... sigh..

The tall Assistant Supervisor (I hope I don't get his position wrong). His name is TONY !!!! Hahah...

And I made friends with new dealers too... FROM YORK, to NIKKO to MICHAEL...

That's all from me, Photos I will upload later... If I have time.. HEHEHEHE

Tit & Bits of CASINO Experiencessss ... HAHA !!!

2009-06-28T05:18:00.001+08:00

Enjoy the photos ....

Casino Day 1

Date: 5th June, 2009 (Friday)
Venue: Casino Bad Homburg
Description: It was my first day !!! I like it !!! SO MUCH !!!

Me in Casino Bad Homburg at the entrance of Classic Games.

My mom with some guy who just pop-up out of nowhere.
The photo was taken in front of the Slot Machine's Entrance.

My mom in front of the Slot Machine's Entrance.

Me in front of the Slot Machine's Entrance.

Me in front of the Casino Entrance.

Casino Day 2

Date: 10th June, 2009 (Wednesday)
Venue: Casino Bad Homburg
Description: I hate my shoes. I was in pain. It was not a really good day. My mom does not win. SHE LOST !!! Anyway, I saw 2 very beautiful girls - model looking girls. So gorgeous. They came with a very weird guy. Anyway, I think these 2 girls might be that "Weird guy"s girls. That weird guy is extremely weird. He was looking at me and my mom when we went to the toilet. Then, the one of the girl pull down her clothe so that the "Weird Guy" can see her bra strap. Anyway, I think that "Weird Guy" is a rich guy. He have bodyguards with him.

I'm at the Bus Stop (Bus going to Casino Bad Homburg)

I'm at the Florist at Hbf

DB Bahn Train Station, Euro Train (ICE)

I am next to Cigarette Machine.

Casino Day 3

Date: 12th June, 2009 (Friday)
Venue: Casino Bad Homburg
Description:
It was an EXTREMELY WONDERFUL Friday... I love the dealers working on that day.... They were all very friendly and fun to talk to. From the guy that has 2 dogs and the guy with mustache ..... And his other friends... I was having so much fun. Me and my mom had won more than 1500 Euro !!! My job was as the assistant to assist my mom. We tried to cover up the money where my mom had lost on the previous Wednesday (around 600 Euros).

I've got to know the Kosova guy, which I called the CRAZY WEIRD GUY on last Wednesday. According to my mom , this guy had been watching us. I do not notice his existence till my mom told me... It is not because that I am not aware but due to me being so busy entertaining and talking to the dealers. I went for a drink as I've worked my brain too much. When I came back, my mom had changed to another table. Her table where she was betting earlier had closed, thus, she had no choice but to change to another table.
When I came back from drinking, I saw my mom was doing fine. Thus, I was just watching her from the other side. My leg was tired standing, then, I went to sit on the couch near the windows. Suddenly, a guy turned his head to the left, looking at my direction. He was the Kosova guy !!! I gave him a mild smile, as I have no interest on him.. NOT YET !!! Not long after that, he came and sit at the couch next to me. By the tail of my eyes, I can see he turned his face to the left, looking at me... DUH !!!! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO MAKE IT SO OBVIOUS !!! I was overwhelmed with the feeling of awkwardness ... However, I wasn't be bothered at all to look at him, instead I was busy looking on the screen, trying to catch up what numbers were coming out.

I can't stand him looking at me. Thus, I had decided to stand by my mom's side. My mom was inviting one of the dealer to come to Malaysia. However, he said he can't because he have 2 dogs to take care. I told him that I have had 3 dogs in Malaysia. A Rottwiler, A German Shepherd and a CLOROX BLEACH dog (I dont know his breed). Suddenly, out of no where, the Kosova guy appeared and he took out his iPhone, trying to show his dogs too I guess. However, me and my mom was showing no interest, thus, I guess, he have to show it to the dealer. Not long after that, the dealer with the mustache came to work. So, he was asking a few questions regarding my studies. Thus, I was telling him that I'm pursuing my study in Chemical Engineering. Then, the Kosova guy said : "Oh, insiniur (Engineer) !!!". My mom started a conversation with him, asking him where he is from, while, I was just remaining silent due I have no interest to know. I was just smiling to the dealers, showing my joy. I smile a bit to the Kosova guy as I dont want to be rude. He soon invited us for drink but unfortunately being declined by my mom. Not long after that, he went back home. Then he flicked my mom's arm and rub my arm while saying goodbye. It was only then, I have this warm feeling towards him. I was looking at him going back, staring his back. Then, I was touching my arm to see If my arm's skin is soft. Luckily, I put on lotion earlier or else my skin will be extremely dry.
The pictures below was before I went to the Casino. I went there with the same shirt, however, I tied up my hair in pony tails later on in the train station before going to the Casino.

Me in front of my dad's car.

My Mom and I.

ME.

Me in front of my father's car.

Casino Day 4

Date: 13th June, 2009 (Saturday)
Venue: Casino Wiesbaden
Description: It was my mom's birthday eve. I was sick. However, my mom still continued playing and SHE WON A LOT !!! She started with 100 Euro and she end up winning almost 1000 Euro... HAHA !!!!

I do not quite like Wiesbaden because .... SO MUCH CHEAP GIRLS there. There is this one guy, which I believed a Middle Eastern, who seems to have nothing, however, he have good command of English. Well, he went to the Casino betting in small chips (2 Euro) and yet he sounded so show off !!! He said something like this : "The money means nothing to me !!!". However, he bet in small chips.... WTF !!! How I wish that Kosova guy was there .... Then, he can make that MIDDLE EASTERN DUDE to SHUT UUUPPPP !!!! I think around 4 to 5 girls are crazy of that Middle eastern guy... YUCK !!! Does those girls only worth that much ????

Casino Day 5

Date: 17th June, 2009 (Wednesday)
Venue: Casino Bad Homburg
Description: It was a tiring Wednesday - my first day of period fall on this day. I was so tired. Extremely tired. It was a Ladies Night, thus, we were given a free champagne each. I was tipsy even though it was just a full glass of champagne. Maybe because I was too tired. Anyway, I was served with full glass of champagne while my mom only got 1/2 to 3/4 glass. Haha.. Thanks MR BARTENDER !!!

Casino Day 6

Date: 19th June, 2009 (Friday)
Venue: Casino Bad Homburg
Description: It was a Friday. I had lost my gambling on this day due to my wrong intention of going to the casino. My intention was to look at the Kosova guy, just for eye candy. Well, he wear so nicely on that day. Black suite and his shirt was tucked in. His belt was showing.. SEXY !!!! In the beginning before he arrived, I've won some. Once I noticed his present, I've lost my concentration which I end up losing my money, which eventually spoiled my mood and I was extremely PISSED OFF !!!

Me CAM-WHOR-ING in the bedroom.

Me CAM-WHOR-ING in the bedroom.

Me in the Casino Shuttle Bus (on the way to the Casino).

Me and My mom in the Casino Shuttle Bus (on the way to the Casino).

From left: Gina, Fitria & Wilma.

ME and my mom in the washroom (Classic Game Area).

ME in the washroom (Classic Game Area).

ME and my mom in the washroom (Classic Game Area).

My mom and I in the washroom (Slot Machine Area).

Casino Day 7

Date: 2oth June, 2009 (Saturday)
Venue: Casino Bad Homburg
Description: It was a Saturday and I went with my stepfather - Rudiger. I wanted to win back the money that I've lost the day before, Friday 19th June. Unfortunately, I've lost even more.

Me in the Casino's washroom (Classic Games' Area).

Casino Day 8

Date: 23rd June, 2009 (Tuesday)
Venue: Casino Bad Homburg
Description: My Last Day ... Me and my mom went to Subway for lunch before going to the Casino. We were wearing casual wear because, I've packed all my stuff in my luggage bag, while my mom is accompanying me in wearing casual wear.

My Mom in Living Room - Picture 1

My Mom in Living Room - Picture 2

My Mom in Living Room - Picture 3

My Mom in Living Room - Picture 4

My Mom in Living Room - Picture 5

My Mom in Living Room - Picture 6

My Mom in Balcony - Picture 7

My Mom in Subway - Picture 1

My Mom in Subway - Picture 2

ME in Living Room - Picture 1

ME in Living Room - Picture 2

ME in Balcony - Picture 1

ME in Subway- Picture 1

Goodbye CASINO BAD HOMBURG

2009-06-25T05:18:00.016+08:00

Currently, I'm waiting for my transit plane in Dubai. I m currently so bored and have nothing else better to do while waiting mind as well I update my blog. Thus, I am going to talk about my overall trip in Germany to Casino Bad Homburg.

I have now become a casino addict. Addicted to FRENCH ROULETTE. Right now, I cant stop thinking about my future trip to Germany. I can’t wait to go to Spielbank Bad Homburg again. Casino Bad Homburg is such a nice place to go to. I like the roulette dealers. Almost all of them friendly.

FRENCH ROULETTE

I went to the casino again last night and reached back home around 7.30 am in the morning. We left from the Casino at 3.00 am in the morning, while I have a plane to catch at 3.20 in the afternoon. It was such a fun night in the casino yesterday. Well almost all the Dealers including the guards know that I m going back today. They were asking when will I come again and had made me promise that if I come I have to give them a visit. As the girl who is German illiterate, I can only smile or let my mom to translate me whatever they are saying. However, they also speak English. They speak English to me.

I m missing the casino so much right now – the people there as well as the environment there. The sound of the chips and their warm jokes are still humming in my ears. I MISS THEM A LOT !!!

They are very kind people. They wish for me and my mom to win so that we will further stay. They asked questions showing how curious they are, to know more about me and my mom. Well, they know I m from Malaysia.

There are a few dealers that stick on my mind. So that I will not forget what had happened when I am meeting them next year, mind as well I post whatever happen out here.

First and foremost, the dealer who I still owes him my telephone number. He kept asking me for my number but I just refused to give him. Well, he might be joking or he might be serious since he asked twice. But, it does not matter. I will come and visit him when I m in Germany again next time. I won’t let him have all the fuss to come and meet me in Aschaffenburg. Well, he is such a nice guy. Funny and always give me good numbers.

Secondly, the guy who have the Richard Gere look. He is very charming and has that calm and mild look. Well yesterday, I was just standing beside of him. He was asking me if I still remember him since he was in the other table dealing with the table we were at, and I told him “Yes of course!!! You’re the guy who has the cute left eye’s wink and that charming smile. I was smiling all the time when he was looking at me, thus, he called me “The lady that always smiling” (I know it’s grammatically wrong, but that is how he said it). Haha. Well, I asked him one stupid question, whether he was working every day. He humorously answered me “You think I’m crazy to work everyday, I will be dead tired”. Well, he always says the word “CRAZY” haha… still he is funny and cute. Oh yeah, he was so distracted – talking to me until he missed this one number and one of the customer complaint to him. But, he defended himself saying that he did not hear what the customer said. Then, the customer replied him with “of course you don’t hear since you are busy talking with her”. If you happen to read this blog, I would like to apologize for what happen.

His wink is something like this.... Cute Right ????

Next, I am going to talk about the guy that has 2 white dogs. He is such an interesting dealer too. My mom likes his deal because he also deals good numbers. My 2nd Friday there, he and the moustache guy were in charge of my table and I was having so much fun. Thank you for the very unforgettable memories.

The guy that is bold headed and I guess he is about 50 years old. I don’t know. He is funny too. Well, he welcomed me with such a warm treat. He was the first dealer that I met, if not mistaken. He was talking to me in German but I did not understand. However, when he found out that I don’t understand German, not at all. He spoke to me in English. Well, he is very friendly too. Awesome and sporting old dude !!!

The next one is the guy that is a bit chubby but have beard and is wearing spectacles. Haha.
He is so nice too. Even everyone is sleepy, he knows that yesterday was my last day, so he was working more for me.. Bless you…

One of them is a very old guy which I can’t remember his facial feature. He always wishes that my mom will win. Yesterday, he was dealing at the same table as the Richard Gere dude. I was telling them that the Richard Gere dude always comes out with number 5. Unfortunately, the number has not appeared. Thus, the guy asked the Richard Gere dude to give us number 5. The Richard Gere dude replied with “How??? I only spin the ball. Don’t know which number will come out”.

Cannot be left behind is the tall supervisor. He has nice winks too and he always smiled to us. Me and my mom are both so happy to receive his smile. Haha !!! He is so tall, like almost hit the door I guess. Well his height is taller than normal people there. But, he is still cute !!! Nice SMILE !!!

Oh yeah, the bartenders are familiar with us too. They know that I like to order Hot Chocolate. One fo them likes to disturb me by saying : “SHO-KO-LA-DE, CHO-CO-LAT” !!!

I wonder why am I so addicted to Hot Chocolate ??? It taste so good !!! But, WHY??

Besides, there is this one guy that I am slightly attracted to him. A guy from Kosovo or Yugoslavia (I'm pretty confuse - was not paying attention when he was talking to me) who lost a lot of his money - more than 90 thousand Euros I guess ??? He lost gambling for 3 days. I don’t notice how much he lost during the Wednesday (a Wednesday which the next day is a Public Holiday). But, one thing for sure he lost a big bundle of money for 2 Fridays straight. He always came on Friday. Who asked him not to concentrate with the game and keep looking at us, and give us the chance to laugh at him when his money left ONLY 500 Euros. Well, he had been rejected twice for inviting for drinks!!! Very pity of him. Money gone = no girl !!! But, on Wednesday, when I first noticed him, he came with 2 beautiful girls. Those 2 beautiful girls that had made me notice him on Wednesday. Well, I miss him a lot now. He is so funny. The 8 and 11 guy – that is how I’m gonna call him. Since he bet so much on 8 and 11 and he is betting on every table till his money is finish. But, he is a really cute guy, very CUTE looking. He is charming, but, unfortunately, every time he knows that we were looking at him, he acted weird, wanting for more attention!!!! That had spoiled almost everything. Anyway, YES, I admit that I LIKE HIM. But, too bad I have more important things to concentrate and to focus on, which put me in the situation to ignore any guy or eliminate the chance for me to like other guy or have to make myself not available for being invited for a drink.

Well, yesterday there are 2 guys from Dubai want to invite me and my mom for a drink. But, we rejected them too. However, he is luckier than the 8 and 11 guy. We talked more since he keep on trying talking to us. HAHAHA !!!!

I think that’s all from me now… I AM GONNA MISS YOU CASINO BAD HOMBURG !!! I will come again next year to Germany… Hopefully, what the dealer said can be kept regarding that they are still going to remember me if I come next year !!! I am gonna start my extreme diet to lose my weight & keep my hair long & keep myself tanned & I m gonna learn German, and all these are for the future hope of having a more interesting moments in CASINO BAD HOMBURG !!!! Hopefully, the dealers that I mentioned are still there and most importantly, the “8 and 11 guy” will still be there by the time I come… !!!! By that time, if I have become sexy, I ll be the one to ask that “8 and 11" aka Kosova or Yugoslavian guy for a drink. It is up to him to reject me if he want to have his revenge or company me for a drink..

LOVE YOU CASINO BAD HOMBURG !!!!

Fun times in Casino.

2009-06-20T19:23:00.006+08:00

I have been in and out and was spending such a wonderful time in Casinos during my stay here in Germany. However, I've only visited 2 Casinos, which are Casino Bad Homburg & Casino Wiesbaden. Well, in Casino Bad Homburg, most of the staffs are very friendly to me. However, most of them thought that I am from Thailand. I wonder why??? Is it because of my skin tone ( 70% yes i guess) or is it because that I look gorgeous when I really dress up (0 % possibilities & I know it has nothing to do with being called as Thailand girl) or because I have my small Chinese Eyes (30% possibilities.

As I've got irritated when I was being greeted with "Sa Wa Dee Kap". I immediately replied them with : "Sorry, I am not from Thailand. I am from Malaysia".

Well too bad... I do not speak Deustch which made me put myself in a way that - if you want to speak to me, SPEAK ENGLISH !!! Well, in some cases, when I started talking in English, they thought I am an American due to my accent. As for this, I have to fully thank Miss Ingrid - One month of Intensive English Training to further polish my English, and, her American accent had finally influenced me too.. Hehe :)

There are so much different people here in the Casino. From rich to poor. From West to East. From win to lose. From up to down. Ok, anyway. So much fun to watch people win and lose.

There are so much Asians here too. But, most of them are those from lower class aka the sluts aka the prostitutes which definitely not my class. (Sorry to say this. I am not being snobbish. I am just accepting the fact that I am happy to be born under my fathers' blood).

Most people do not expect that I'm still 19 years old.. Hehe.. So much disappointment I had gave them when they knew my age. But, that does not stop me from being friendly to them. Nothing wrong for being sociable.

When me and my mom went there and we are so well dressed. We've become the attraction there. It just pissed me off sometimes. Guys trying to approach us. We were like ... HELLO !!! If you want ASEAN Chicks... THERE!!!! GO THERE!!! THERE... GOT A LOT...

Therefore, if got the chance next year, I want to come with Maxxx to Germany and I'll bring him there. Then, they know that I am owned. (BB I MISS U A LOT NYA.... SO MUCH BABE) Kiss Kiss.

There are so much show off bastards who went to the casino with the wrong purpose, to check out girls... I guess. In the end, he lost everything.. HA HA HA.. SO FUNNY !!!

Anyway, got to go now.. I have to get ready to go to the casino again. My last day... Gonna miss them a lot... THE PEOPLE AND THE PLACE. LOVE YOU CASINO BAD HOMBURG.

Current feeling: Missing Maxxx every second of my life.. Every moment of my time. Every breathe that I inhaled and exhaled.

An unforgettable Friday/Saturday

2009-06-15T05:40:00.010+08:00

Yes.. I am now a Casino Addict. I am strongly addicted to Casino. Well, Casino Bad Homburg is the place where I can satisfy my addictions to gambling. Well, I and my mom had been winning roulette. It is extremely exciting.

Other than being happy of winning, I am so happy that all the staffs are friendly to me and my mom. Well, they were talking to me in English and the whole night was filled with laughter.
The funny thing here is – If you are an Asian, especially if your skin tone is brown, then you will be the main attractions of the people here. It is even better if you have a good command of English, which make them to put you as a highly respectable person. There are many Asians here, mainly from Thailand and Philippines, but, most of them are acting so low class, like prostitutes.

I am strongly attracted to this one guy. I know that I have Maxxx, but, Maxxx said it is normal to be attracted to someone else. He said that is what people usually called as LUST.
OK whatever I m going to write gonna be boring. So, if you want to save time. Now it’s the most suitable time to click the “x” button.

Story 1: The guy who is willing to SPEND about 30 K EUROS in a night

Well, I am attracted to an extremely rich person. BUT, I think he is at the age of 30 -40. He is so rich that he just bet thousands of Euro one go. Yesterday night, he brought about 30k Euro’s and he lost them all.

I’ve noticed this guy since Wednesday – last 2 days ago. He came with 2 very beautiful model- looking girls and his 2 personal bodyguards. He caught my attention for betting in big amount of money and holding a glass of champagne while betting. He looks so charming and sexy while holding that glass of champagne. I also noticed that while in the bar, the 2 ladies were standing beside of him, but, his eyes were staring at me and my mom. His eyes were following us when we were about to go to the toilet, thus, one of the lady put down her clothes and display her shoulder/bra strap. I guess to get his attention back to them.

Yesterday night, he came alone, without his 2 bodyguards and yesterday he was betting roulette on every table. He caught my mom’s attention, mine as well – but, I m more attracted to his money. A thick stack of 500 Euros was on his hand, he was holding the money and trying to show us I guess. My mom said that he keep looking at us. Therefore, I assumed that he is attracted to my mom. UNTIL …..

I lost all my money and wish for a break. So, I went to the bar and have some drink. At this time, my mom changed table because the table she was betting at had to be closed. After I m done with my drink, I went to my mom, unfortunately, the place was crowded, thus, I sat on the couch located near the corner. While I was there, I noticed that the guy came from somewhere (I don’t know from where), and he was standing at the other side of the table, and his head was turning right. At this time, I was looking at him too, thus, I just gave him a mild smile (because somehow, I am scared of him).

Well, he kept on looking at me, but, I just ignored him. My eyes were looking on the TV screen, but, I m also looking at him by the tail of my eyes. Then, he went and sat beside of me, at the other sofa and we were separated by a small round coffee table. He kept on looking at me, but, I was still doing the same – looking on the TV screen, but, at the same time looking at him by the tail of my eyes. Knowing that he kept looking at me, my heart beats faster, thus, I went to my mom to escape from that awkward feeling.

I was talking to the guy who spun the ball, and I was laughing as they were telling jokes all the way. We were talking about dogs as I love dogs. Suddenly, that charming guy appeared out of nowhere. He was asking where I and my mom from and we were talking. He invited for a drink, BUT he got a "NO" in reply… Not long after that, he decided to go back home. When he said bye, he was rubbing/patting our arms. LUCKILY, I put on lotions earlier on, or else my skin will be very dry, then, I’ll be embarrassed.

Pity him, all these sacrifices, he came without girls and wasted about 30k Euros. It is very pity of him. I hope he will win. But, HE LOST !!!

In the beginning, I thought he was attracted to my mom, but, after I was separated from my mom, his eyes were looking at me and his way trying to approach me, had just made myself clear that he might be interested on me.
I am still hoping to see him whenever I have the chance to go to the casino. He is charming and attractive. I can’t stop thinking of him. Sigh.

This is how he fan his money (except that the hand was facing the other side).
How can he not catch my attention by doing so?

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Story 2: The guy who was disappointed from knowing that I am still too young

Warning: This story may not be funny, and it may be a waste of time of reading the post. Press (x) if you wish to stop reading, or scroll down if you wish to continue.

There is a guy, who work as the guy who spin the roulette ball, which according to my mom, he have interest on me. Well, I don’t realize this, but one thing for sure, there is this one guy who likes my mom. But, still he do not know that my mom is married.

The funny thing people taught me and my mom are best friend. Well, what to do. My mom is a MILF.. She looks young and still she looks hot.

Lets cut all the crap and go straight to the point.

The guy was so sad when he knows that I am still young and still studying. He told his friend, speaking in Deutsch, translated by my mom:

The guy’s friend : “What do you manage to find out from her this time?” The guy : “Not good. Too bad. She is still studying. She is still very very very young.” Hahah.. too bad.. Luckily he don’t asked for my age. If he knows I am only 19. He will be more surprised.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

When we were done playing and were heading home, they wished for us to come again. I think the people there really like us because we have cheered up their tiring days and filled the time with laughter. Hehe. :)

KL Trip

2009-04-16T10:49:00.010+08:00

I was in KL for few days between 26th of March till 31st of March.. I was staying with my elder sister in Shah Alam. I am missing her a lot right now.

From the apartment's balcony. "Carlsberg Factory !!! "

From the apartment's balcony.

It was a very interesting trip, different from all the KL trips that I had ever been - I was using the KTM, monorail, etc aka public transportations to reach my destinations. Hehe.. :) Usually, my dad will either rent a van or the Federal Hotel's Limousine and make them drive us around to wherever place that we feel like going.

The trip was fun. It was fun that I can practice my dance on my elder sis' carpet. Very comfortable and nice. I went down and swim in the pool downstairs almost everyday. Nice!!!

The swimming pool downstairs.

The courts beside the swimming pool.

Anyway, I m so happy that I met my best friend Farah... I really miss her a lot.. I was staying over for the night at her house, and we were trying to catch up with whatever things that we had missed.. Farah I miss u so much now. :(

Me and Farah went to watch the movie "Confessions of a Shopaholic".

The movie is quite enjoyable. However, there are not much of nicely styled clothings. Thus, I prefer the movie "Devil wears Prada".

Here are some pictures of me and Farah... Haha.. in Mid Valley...

It's over

2009-04-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

All good things comes to an end ... ... It's over

Tagged by Farah Hanis.

2009-02-27T11:53:00.005+08:00

Frankly speaking, I hate this game.. but then, since Farah is the one who tagged me and she is one of my best girl.. Thus, I will entertain her tag.

I wonder how long will this tag last??? I mean this tag is just like a chain letter that appear in your e-mail and now it's appearing in your blog. Talking about chain later, feel like writing about it later or next time.... ^-^ If I have the chance..

1) Do you think you're hot?
Define hot... If what 'hot' means that I am able to get guys to be sexually excited. Then, I never think that I'm hot, nor sexy, nor pretty. However, I consider myself as a presentable looking and have a very sweet/pleasant personality.

2) Upload your favourite picture of you.

A picture of me and Ying Chai.

3) Why do you like that picture?
Ying Chai is a friend that I always talk to when I was in trouble last time (middle school). However, during college life we have walk our own way.. Especially now that I could hardly online, so, we could hardly keep in touch. Until today, I am still missing her a lot.

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
Last month??? Nah, I can't remember.. But, I am a fan of Pizza.. So, I ate pizza very often.

5) The last song you listened to?
J Holiday - Bed (That was the last song I heard playing on my track list while I was showering this morning).

6) What are you doing now besides this?
Looking at my sister (Tina) playing WMO (Water Margin Online).

People I tag :

I wanna tag Farah... But, she tagged me already...

1) Maxxximus
2) Tina
3) Kak Nyssa
4) Clara
5) Harleen

Who is number 1?
My other half... Hasrin @ Chai Ang Kok aka Sayang-ku.

Say something about number 5.
My cute classmate.

How about number 4?
A friend who also studied in Curtin with me.. and I heard a lot about her since before I know her... ^-^

Who is number 2?
My younger sister Tina who loves dancing so much.. !!! ;)

As for number 3, she is among the gorgeous looking lady i ever known. My housemate who stays with me while I was in Curtin. She used to be my senior while I was in middle school.

I wanna drink with my friends again !!!

2009-02-17T23:16:00.005+08:00

Drinking (with friends) is nice... Drinking (alone) SUCKS BIG TIME...

I was chatting with Richard just now and at the same time with Dyman.. online via MSN... Me and Maxxx were both talking to them (Dyman especially, without Maxxx hard to talk to him cause I am 70% Brunei Malay Language illiterate)... As forRichard.. I REALLY MISS HIM SO SO MUCH.... He was asking where am I & when am I going to visit him in Miri again... Then, i told him that I am not sure.. Now that I m gone he said, he is short of another drinking buddy... Since, Maxxx left too, short another one... :(

I miss all my drinking buddies.... cause drinking with them is enjoying... when they start drinking they wont stop until they get pissed drunk and passed out.. and usually this will take the whole night till dawn (from 10.00 pm onwards)... and usually they'll pass out by dawn...

I still remember during GAWAI 2008. We were all drinking till dawn.. We were mixing and drinking whatever that can get in to our tummy... From liquor to tuak to chinese wine to beer...

During a party in 2008, we were drinking till almost dawn too.. I remembered that I was the last one to wake up (around 12.00 noon) cause I went to the room next door and chill with the gangs...

Technically,
* I am missing 3571 so much - the place where I learnt to drink... Hassan, the guy who drink so much and then he puke & once he puke, he'll be normal again....

* I miss the Africans... Paul, Chris, Fred, Moses... cause they can drink shit lots... I miss Omid too..

* I miss Maxxx's friend in Brunei especially Dyman cause he is funny. He got drunk so early & he'll be acting funny after that...

*I miss my gangs cause drinking is their life & they wont be confident well unless they are drunk...

* I miss Ardhie, the guy who loves Martell.. and the guy who drinks plain tea with no sugar...

Throughout the time in Miri, I have been trying so much type of liquor from cheap to expensive.. Drinking have become a habit where it happen so often that life feels boring without it now...

I am MISSING EVERYONE ESPECIALLY FARAH.. MY BEST FRIEND WHO IS NOW IN KL.... KAK NISA AND RENEE MY EX-HOUSEMATES.... SIGH..

One day, if I manage to visit my mom and if Maxxx are able to follow me to meet her up in Germany, a drink that I have been wanting to try.. Green glowing color... which is illegal in Malaysia as it contains 70% of alcohol and will make you hallucinate...

Absinth

Legend of the Arching Hero - 2003 Vs 2008

2009-02-03T17:18:00.008+08:00

Such a big disappointment for me... Sigh... I was expecting that the "Legend of Arching Hero 2008" will be better. Ironically, the older version in year 2003 was way way better... Luckily, I do not go and get the original copy of the 2008 version's movie as my collection... or else will be a waste of RM 130+..

I realize that Zhang Ji Zhong/ 张纪中 is a really good movie director/producer... All the movies/series that were directed by him are ALL GOOD... As a big fan of Wu Xia (heroic/kung fu) movies, I am extremely enjoying all the movies produced by Zhang Ji Zhong.

Zhang Ji Zhong

My most favourite of his movie is Legend of the Condor Hero also called as Legend of the Arching Hero - 2003 production.

I like the actress who acted as Huang Rong / 黄蓉 , (Zhou Xun/ 周迅 is her real name). Her acting is awesome. Unfortunately, I could hardly found the copy of the series anymore. You can get the synopsis of the movie here.

Zhou Xun

The "Return of the Condor Hero" is a very interesting story.. A follow-up movie/story regarding the next/younger generations. Click here to read more about the story-line. The actress Liu Yi Fei/ 刘亦菲 @ Crystal Liu is one of my favorite actress too.. A beautiful ballerina who can act so well.. Nice voice, cute face, nice body... PERFECT!!!!

Liu Yi Fei

The 2008 series of Legend of Arching Heroes, indeed, the Guo Jing is very cute looking. But, the story line sucks. Graphic sucks too. SO FAKE & LAME !!! SIGH !!!

Currently, I am waiting for the new movie, directed by Zhang Ji Zhong - Heaven Sword and Dragon Saber @ 倚天屠龙记 @ Yi Tian Tu Long Ji.

Heaven Sword and Dragon Saber

We are still together...

2009-02-01T13:51:00.007+08:00

You guys may found that both Me & Maxxx's facebook have been deleted. Yes indeed, the old facebook was deleted permanently. However, we will come back again on 17 March 2009, which is during our 17th month anniversary.

Anyway, for Norman Prima, Aiman, Ameara, Kak Nyssa, Jessie and some more, who I dont remember their names, me and Maxxx are still couple and never broke up. I've been wanting to post about this, but then I was busy doing Maxxx's blog skins, my blog skins, Tina's blog (html coding) and me & Maxxx's photo blog.

Indeed, I was not happy with him on that night and plan to break up, however we both change our mind. In the end, we are still couple..

Anyway, we are still happy together.. still love each other as much as.... more than we love each other last time..

I love you sayangku... Kiss Kiss...

Friends will always be there for you. ^-^

2009-01-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

Friends...

They will always be there when you need them. Friends are everywhere. Some of them come and go. Some of them, stay with you. When you are in trouble, they will be there for you. Even if you could hardly hang out with them, whenever they know you are in trouble, they welcome you with open arms.

This post will be about a personal experience that I will want to share with one of my friend in Brunei (initialed as 'T'). The old readers may already know what had happened and my old friends definitely knew my past too. So, if you guys wants to continue reading, it might be a waste of time.

The purpose of writing this is to hope that it can help her a bit, cause I know how hurt it was the moment when you just broke up. The transition for you to heal requires you time and support. Hopefully, this will help her. Even I never meet her, after all we both are girls, and we chatted in MSN, therefore, grew the intention to help her. Hopefully she will somehow motivated.

Before I am with Maxxx, I used to fall for a guy so much, who happen to be my ex. What worst is, my best friend took him away from me. It hurts. REALLY HURTS. Especially who is doing that is your best friend.

Technically, he is my first love. I was hurt and was single for more than a year. Stupid thing to do. In the end, until today, we do not talk anymore. What worst is, he denies of knowing me. But, I never care cause people knew how he used to like me and chase me. So, just let it be.

What is most stupid is, I do not move on in that one year. I gave him a promise that just in case he and my best friend don't work well, then, i ll welcome him back. STUPID... I WAS AN IDIOT. Everytime, I saw him with my best friend, it hurts me so badly.

I was overwhelmed by my emotions until I even manage to compose a song for them, which a lot of people like - Cinta 3 Segi. After all those sacrifices done, in the end, I end up with someone else.

During the time of my sad period, he do not care how I was and how I have been doing, after all we broke up - not related anymore. But, my friends are there to cheer me up. I remembered I used to cry a lot... Lai Ying Chai, Andy Tsai, Adeline Chen, Pang Qi Li, Adila, Hafiza (mostly my classmates) Ally, Timothy are the one there listening to my problems.

I keep on making myself busy that year. The busiest year ever. Trying to achieve the best for myself, to show to him that I m doing well (which I am actually not). Technically, when humans are trying to show the world that they are okay, that means, they are not okay. (T, your ex is showing the world that he is ok, technically something wrong with it. He moved on too fast, something wrong with it.. For Sure... Besides, dont need to think about him too much).

For one year, I was hurt. The worst thing still happen, I like a guy (nicknamed "orange", to keep his privacy, after all these are past that I am talking about). But then, we dont end up together. I came to Curtin for him, in the end, I am with Maxxx.

I was a very screw up when I came to Curtin, people have to take care of me and worst, I dont even let them, which technically drag them into my problem.

After "orange", then I like another guy "Grape". "Grape" does not know that I like him, maybe he does, his friends told him. But, I never admit to him. Then, I screw his life up, somehow..

Why have I been doing all these? Cause I wanted to show to my ex that I m doing well. But, in the end I screw up. All my friends got drag into my problems.

All these while, there is this one guy, which we called each other marshmallow, who is in Perth waiting, but, in the end, we still dont end up together. A guy that is really good to me that even Maxxx admitted that he is jealous of him.

Ok.. I guess I strayed away too much.. anyway, the most important thing is your friends.

Last time, I just stayed in our own world. Neglecting all my friends as my ex dont like them. But, when I am in trouble, they are the one who supported me.

Even, when I am in trouble and needed someone to take care of me, since I just move to Curtin and live without parents, Baboon, Leslie, Nixon and the gang are the one who helped me.

Maxxx and the people in 3571 taught me how to be a drinker and not a drunker. Then, I slowly adapt myself again with Leslie and the gang and make sure that I am still alright when I m drinking with them cause they are "kaki botol".

Your friends will always be there for you. Keep themselves updated about you even you are not by their side. and they will give you the best wishes anyone can ever give.

Anyway, Baboon & Nixon, I know you guys dont read blogs... but, thanks a lot for your words... "Fitria you have grew up, we are happy to see you with Maxxx than being with "orange"." I still remember that you told me that during Azfar House Party.

Recalling the past back, made me miss all my friends so much right now, from 3571 to Music Society to my GRSS school friends. DAMN... YOU GUYS ARE ALL SO NICE TO ME!!!!! THANKS....

Anyway, T... be strong... you can do it.. I did it... Find your friends... Currently, they are those who understand you most now... Even if your heart tells that you need your ex most right now, the real thing is... you need all your friends right now... you have the whole group with you... From M to E to etc.... Take care..

Relationship???

2009-01-20T17:18:00.000+08:00

Do you know that when you are in a relationship, whether you are in love and will lead yourself to marriage or you are just having fun and enjoying your puppy love, there is no need for you to do everything that you "THINK" you should do, to make sure that your partner is happy to be with you.

I can't deny that in a relationship, a couple owns each other mentally & physically. Therefore, it is important to know that you are as important as your other half. IF SOMETHING WRONG HAPPEN TO ONE OF YOU, how do you expect the other HALF to spend the rest of their life without you? Besides, you are not suppose to feel guilty if you are slightly selfish to yourself. There is NOTHING WRONG for you to give more love to yourself than thinking about your other half all the way and figuring out ways to make she/he happy. HELP YOURSELF SO THAT YOU CAN HELP OTHERS TOO.

Me and Maxxx have up and down in our relationship. From being good, then fighting, then being good, then argue, then back to normal again.

Relationship is a form of art, where both girl & guy have to put an effort to create it. It can be defined positively and negatively. For example, Red is the color of anger, ironically, red can bring happiness if the arts in it is happy. YOU HAVE TO DECIDE THE PATH AND HOW YOUR LOVE IS GOING TO BE DEFINED.

In our relationship, I m usually the one who is so stubborn and want things to happen as I wanted. This is due to the emotions that controls me. Frankly, I m not happy to know that my guy flirting with other girl. However, I never showed Maxxx that I do not like it. Instead, I got very stubborn and get super mean in order to pay my revenge and I end up making Maxx cried, sometimes, I even made myself cry too.

This is a mistake where I, as a girl should not commit. As a girl, we are overwhelmed with the feeling of being sensitive and emotional. However, we should never expect that a guy will understand us by showing that something that they do, just dont make you happy. I've been expecting Maxxx to know that there is always something with him that I hate a lot. However, he never knows until the day I confronted him, and how long does it take? 1 year plus.

What I can see is mens are not much different from the others, regardless if they are egoist or they are much humble and willing to give in. They dont read girls' mind and they cant give everything that a girl might want. Therefore, as the girl you have to ask the boy and confront them.

I can't deny that Maxxx is a fun person to be around with, as I can play around with him and goof around like goofy. It does not matter if you look stupid or act stupid in front of your laugh one.. Just let them laugh at you. It is a way to bring JOY to your relationship. LAUGHTER WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST MEDICINE.

Besides, you should not be too scared and worrying too much that your other half will not be happy with you or whatever you do will make she/he sad. It is alright for tears to flow once in a while. It is alright for you to argue once in a while too.

If you are so scared and become too alert on what you are doing, you will just overload your love one. She/he will be bloated by your love and in the end, they will get bored of you. Besides, you will tend to forget what is more important, if you tend to be so alert on what you are doing.

You put such a hard effort to fill in the water and make sure it is full. BUT.....

the water is already overflowing. WHAT A WASTE....

For example, you are trying so hard to fill in the tank with water. But then, you are never aware that the water in the tank is already overflowing. You still continue filling in water into the tank. While, what you should do is just to wait for the water in the tank to run low, then, only you fill it in with more water, so that it wont be a waste. Your effort to carry the water to be filled to the tank wont be a waste. The water that overflow is not wasted too.

Most importantly, you try to understand and learn your other half's behaviour. Learn so that you know what you should do. A relationship is not an exam for you. You dont need exercises to practise or advices to follow, as different relationship carry their own different arts. Everything will come naturally. Doing whatever your heart tells you, accompanied by the logic of your thought, somehow, you will just know what to do next.

Happy Anniversary - 15 Months - 1 year 3 Months

2009-01-17T20:51:00.001+08:00

Happy Anniversary sayangku... and also happy birthday to Andri.... hahah.. anyway.. sayangku... thanks for always being by my side for 15 months already... My wish is that we can get together till we both graduate, till we both found a good job, till we both get married, till we both have kids, till we both losing teeth, till we both die.. hahah... LOVE MY SAYANGKU SO SO MUCH...

I miss sayangku since yesterday night.. I was dreaming about sayangku, Ali, Kak Nyssa, Johan, Renee, Hassan, Farah & Kim Seng... I guess I really miss everyone... extremely miss everyone.. Renee and Kak Nysa especially...

Sayangku.. Thanks for always be there for me when I need you.. Enjoy.. and take care when I'm not by your side.. I will take care too.. Love u so much.. :)

I give it all to Maxxx

2009-01-16T19:20:00.001+08:00

Maxxx !!!! I miss you SO SO SO MUCH!!!!

I was watching this series called "Coffee Prince" earlier with my younger sis Tina .... It is a korean 17 episodes series, reflecting a story about how a couple love each other so much and they finally got together.

Go Eun Chan is love by a guy called Choi Han Kyul, who happen to be her boss. However, as Eun Chan is tomboyish, Han Kyul's family does not accept her. However, Han Kyul's determination on Eun Chan had made him succeed to persuade his family and made his family to fall for her.

Eun Chan has an ambition to fulfill, which is to be a famous barista, therefore, she had taken the chance to study in Italy. Thus, Eun Chan will have to leave Han Kyul's for 2 years to further her study.

What makes me found this story interesting is, they way Eun Chan and Han Kyul's treated each other when they express their loves are somehow like Me and Maxxx... Watching this series, had made me to keep thinking of Maxxx.

It made me recall on how me and Maxxx first couple up... In the beginning, Maxxx is definately not my type of guy... I was smaller in size back then.. A guy whose size is like a bear definately is not my type. However, the situation back then was making me to think : "it does not matter if he is not the guy of my type cause what most important is the results... The results of what will happen if I put an effort in this relationship.... The results of what will happen if WE put efforts in this relationship.."

Indeed there were up(s) and down(s) in our life.. However, we have not been putting ourselves apart.. and Maxxx has always been really patient on me... That what makes me really love him...

I once used to use this as a motto: "HAPPINESS IN LIFE IS NOT CAUSE BY HAVING EVERYTHING YOU WANT, BUT BY COMPLAINING LESS IN YOUR LIFE" ....

There were times where I was in trouble and there were times when he was in trouble... and we both had managed to help each other.... He tried to give me and fulfill me with everything i need.. and so do I... He tolerate more than an un-marrried man should.. He had put behind his ego... and NOTHING can alter the fact that we are deeply in love to each other...

Maxxx... I love you so so much... You are my only one.. Nothing else matter than being success in the future and to be with you...

Happy New Year 2009

2009-01-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009.. MAY THE YEAR GOES SMOOTHLY... :)

Merry Christmas 2008

2008-12-24T18:41:00.001+08:00

Today was a busy and hectic day for me.. It was so tiring... I have to go here and there and helped my dad with his things... I m missing "my sayang" all the time... thinking and wondering what he have been doing all day long... Even I have received SMS' from him, it is still not enough for me as I miss him EXTREMELY MUCH... Anyway, I m meeting him soon.. Can't wait for that moment.. I've been counting days and time for the day to come...

Tonight will be Christmas Eve... Usually, at this time, I will be out with my friends celebrating Christmas Eve, having dinner together and exchange gifts.. While, tomorrow morning, I will be in church celebrating Christmas together.. However, after being with Maxxx, he turned me into a more religious person, reminding myself that I am a Muslim... Therefore, this year, I m stuck at home, watching movies - DVDs, and hopefully, I can blog about all the events that had happened that I have not put in my blog.. (will try to recall whatever things that had happened)

Yesterday, I had finished making one of my sayangku's pillow case.. It is black in color... He have been looking for black pillow cases all over Kuching... Unfortunately, people don't sell black pillow case.. He wanted it cause, Maxxx bought a new set of bedsheet and comforters that is gray & black in color.. two of his pillows are same color as the bedsheet, however, the other 2 pillows are still in red... and he wanted a black pillow case cause it looks cool and black will definately blent with the bed sets...

Merry Christmas to everybody... and to my sayangku, I love you and miss you all the time.. Take good care...

BOA & RAIN...

2008-12-21T20:30:00.001+08:00

I bet you guys all know BOA & RAIN.. Both are korean singers and both of them are good dancers..

I m actually very amazed of BOA talent and her effort to start singing in English...
I actually enjoyed watching her new MV - Eat You Up... I like her dance moves.. Pretty Awesome..

Besides, Rain Bi's New Song titled Rainism is a good song too.. However, the MV is not as interesting as BOA's Eat You Up...

How I wish Maxxx can be at my side right now.. Watching these 2 videos with me.. (BB, I MISS U SO SO SO MUCH!!!! )

I can't help myself to recall the time where Maxxx eat.. cause when he eats, he eats happily... enjoying the food... as for me, he look super-cute while eating... I know he likes my cooking a lot.. HAHAHA.. CHAI ANG KOK @ Sayanku.... I MISS U... WANT TO COOK MORE FOOD FOR YOU & MAKE U TEH TARIK... Love u BB... AS Always....

Missing you a lot HASRIN..

2008-12-20T19:47:00.001+08:00

I'm missing Maxxx every second of my life, everytime I breathe, everytime I sit and relax.... I never realized how much I need Maxxx right now.. I had fall in love so deeply, to my one and only Maxxx... Since he is not by my side, my life seems empty and boring.... I can't help myself thinking about him.... I can't help looking at our pictures together and recalling every sweet moment that we have had together...

When you know that your love one is leaving, and you are going to be apart, time seems to pass by really fast... extremely fast... even if your mind is actually filled by thinking about him at all time..

I have been with Maxxx for more than 1 year.. and we are turning to the 15th month together... I know there are more couple staying together longer than us.. But, what made me think I m special is, Me and Maxxx shared everything.. including money, time and friends... If you see me, then you'll see Maxxx.... I've been staying with him for more than a year.. together.. like hubby and wifey... Since I had been with him 24/7, looking at him and being with him at almost all time, therefore, it is very tough for me when he is not by my side. I tend to miss him all the time... Sigh...

All I can think about now is, when will I have the chance to meet him again... We have made a pledge that we will stay together... and I STRONGLY believe that WE WILL and WE CAN...

Well, at this time, thanks to the modern technology - Skype... Free internet calls and you are able to enjoy the benefits of VIDEO CONFERENCES..... the most awesome thing is, Skype is compatible with PSP too.. heheh.. AWESOME.....

Yesterday night, to reduce my loneliness, I had chatted with Maxxx by using video conference via Skype... And right now, I m still waiting for him to get back to online with me as he went out with his parents for dinner..

Skype Video Conference with Maxxx - My View

Skype Video Conference with Maxxx - His View.

I'm BACK... BLOGGING!!!

2008-12-20T18:57:00.001+08:00

I'm finally back.. I will slowly update my blog.. Sorry for the long "in-active/idle" moment.. Yes, I know my blog has been like a graveyard since there is no update.. But, I'm back... I'll try to post whatever I m suppose to post - either they were incidents happen in the past or happen in the present..

Thank you if you are still with me.. Love you guys...

Right now: I'm missing everyone..

From Maxxx, My Mom, Kim Seng, Hassan, Renee, Johan, Ali, Nysa, Farah, Melanie, Ardhie, Andri, and.... my other friends (neighbours, african @ especially Fred, Curtin Music Society friends). Well I miss you guys a lot.. "The names mentioned above are not according to arrangement, but I do miss Maxxx most... hehe :) "

What a boring week.. :(

2008-09-22T11:12:00.001+08:00

Apparently, last week was among the WORST week of all.. With so much drama happening (regarding prom) as well as a week that you does not have to chill with.. tidak ada barang yaw!!!!!

Very unfortunate for Calvin's band, that they were not going to perform during the prom due to some issues that I best not say. Therefore, for the Curtin Music Society, only Neil's band and my band going to perform.

This week i have been such a demanding bitch to the student council, asking this and that on behalf of the Music Society performers - requesting for more discount for the ticket for Neilson and the band, as their band performing for at least 10 songs, therefore they got a discount up to RM 20 for the prom and all they need is to pay RM 30 for their ticket. As for my band, we wont be bothered if there is discount or no discount. But, got discount, of course it will be better. Since we are not that demanding, we only have RM 10 discount which make our ticket cost RM 40.

Neilson and His 2 guitarists.

Besides, asking for discounts, i also request for fuel compensation/subsidies to transport all the instruments to Eastwood Valley. The subsidies given will be RM 40. Me and Maxxx wont be bothered with this as we are using Brunei fuel which is one time cheaper than their fuel.. :)

I know Calvin and his band members were sad that they are not able to perform for the Grand Ball. But, what can I say? What can I do? They select the bands that they want to see performing..

Anyway, hopefully that all these conflicts will end by this week and wont be dragged for a long time.

Talking about the Curtin Masquerade Grand Ball, I finally got my dress.. Haha :)

I will be wearing all red this time. Will be wearing a long red gown, with red mask and red handbag, but then my heels will be black.. haha.. technically, i m black and red. oh yeah, i just highlighted my hair red last week too..

Curtin First Masquerade Grand Ball - 2008

my hair highlighted (side view) - gold (old highlights) & red (new highlights)

my hair highlighted (front view) - gold (old highlights) & red (new highlights)

my hair highlighted (back view) - gold (old highlights) & red (new highlights)

my long red gown

My red mask for the MASQUERADE GRAND BALL

My red handbag that I bought from Kuching

Last Friday night was a very boring week, therefore, went drinking with Baboon, Leslie, Bertram and Richard. I brought 3 quarter bottle of Chivas and so fast it finish. So, get "Tuak - Iban wine" and it finish too. Well, before it finish, Baboon was drunk already, cause he is anti-tuak. Then, we decided to go to the black market in town to get Vodka. So, me, Maxxx, Leslie, Richard and Bertram - we all went to town to get cigarette and vodka.. From Senadin to town, including the long wait from the aunty, who sells the vodka as she needs to get it from the opposite of the road. We manage to come back to Senadin for about 15 minutes of time.. Hehe...

Bertram, the guitarist of my band

Richard, Leslie & Melvin

Baboon @ Charles Lawrence

It was a fun night with Richard, Leslie, Bertram, baboon and their housemate who is suppose to have exam the day after - Melvin. All their jokes are funny, I feel like laughing all the time.

Saturday is the most tiring day. We came back home from drinking with the boys mentioned above around 3.30 am - 4.30 am. About this time la.. Cant see the watch properly also. Anyway, was waken up by my bassist Josh to go for practice that is suppose to be at 9.00 am.. Quickly take my bath went to knock on my guitarist door - Andri... and pull him to campus while he was on his pyjamas and boxer.. Called Bertram - my second guitarist, he came and look like a zombie too.. hahaha.. So funny, all of us by then.

Went to Brunei straight away after I finish my practice, brought Farah with me. I was so sleepy in the car, but then, could not give myself a good sleep as I was sitting up. Reach Maxxx house around 5.30 pm then google for masks in the web, then too tired so I fall asleep. But, not long after that, was awaken up for Sungkai. So we sungkai with all members of Maxxx's family.

After sungkai, went to Qlap mall, as suggested by Miz-zie. Went for dress hunting.. but, could not find anything that catch my eyes. Therefore, went back to Gadong Mall and get the long red dress that I wanted to buy last week. So, I bought it. Actually, wanted to get a short dress, but due to the theme is "Night of elegance" and since my bad is a Jazz band, therefore, its best for me to wear all red.

We went to get the Sheesha bong too.. cause we were bored throughout the week.. After getting the bong, went chilling with Maxxx's friend, Kong and Sadri. Were drinking Vodka and smoking sheesha throughout the night till around 04.30 am, I guess because Maxxx's dad was calling to my phone (terkejut me) to ask if we are going to bersahur with them.

Kong, Maxxx's drinking buddy in Brunei

KKS @ Kanak-Kanak Sial - Maxxx's Activities/Chilling Buddies

Anyway, went for mask hunting on Sunday, and went back to Miri after that.

Selamat Berpuasa.

2008-09-02T15:30:00.001+08:00

Today is the second day of Ramadhan as well as the second day of Puasa for us Malaysians. However, for those Bruneians, they just started today. Anyway, went to juadah yesterday evening to check out all the delicious food that they were selling. Unfortunately, I'm quite disappointed with the food, as they aren't many choices.

We just got back from Brunei last 2 days ago, last Sunday. I and Maxxx went there on Saturday morning. The moment we reached there, uncle – maxxx’s dad was cleaning his car. While auntie – maxxx’s mom and Kak Lela – maxxx’s sister-in-law, they were preparing for lunch. But in the end, I and Kak Lela were the one preparing for lunch, because auntie followed uncle to bring maxxx out for check-up. I had a lot of talk with Kak Lela and frankly speaking, nice talking to her. She is so pretty. It is very lucky for Abg iol – maxxx’s bro, to have a stewardess as his wife.

On Sunday morning, auntie was cooking. Well, I just like her “black pepper beefs” a lot, really nice to eat. I was having my lunch with Maxxx, uncle and auntie. Auntie told us that she was coughing and having sore throat. We went back to Miri after lunch.

Anyway, on the way back from Brunei, there was a very long queue entering Malaysia. While waiting, we notice this funny sign board -------

What a sign board… Well, as for me and maxxx, we think that the sign board is used to remind the HUSBANDS or maybe the WIVES as well, to remember that they have a family at home. Thus, it is a reminder for them for not to flirt around in Malaysia. As for the men, they are not supposed to find prostitutes… and as for the ladies, maybe they are not supposed to go out and be a prostitute. Well, frankly, all I can think of is, this signboard is meant for the men, not the ladies.

I can guarantee that the sign board is definitely meant to remind the Bruneians that they have their own family at home and they should behave when they are here in Miri because it is made by:

What other "isu SO-SIAL" it can probably be if it is not "keruntuhan rumah-tangga"?

One thing for sure is, they are really unfortunate if their wife found out that they slept with prostitute in Malaysia.

Long & Boring Updates

2008-08-04T22:54:00.001+08:00

This is going to be a boring update.. Just for my sister Tina to know... regarding the details for my trip to Brunei...

I had been really busy since it's the starting of the new semester.. However, the starting of this new semester is fun.. Since the starting of this semester till today life is filled with more laughter and joy.

Anyway, the orientation party for this semester is like so LAME!!! Very unfortunate for the new students as all these while Orientation Parties were celebrated at night, while the new-comers this semester were having it in a boring & hot 26th August's afternoon. My friends & I - all from Curtin Music Society were required to perform, very unfortunate for us, as we all were preparing to perform at night time, the songs presented were not suitable for the crowd, and of course, we also lost our will and spirits to perform - since it is during the HOT AFTERNOON, where the heat from the sun burns you badly, thus, we screwed up our performances!!!

A day before, which is on Friday, 25th August 2008, I went to Brunei with Maxxx to celebrate his parents Anniversary. We were having dinner at the airport, enjoying the meal same as those passengers for Royal Brunei Airlines (RBA). It is really a big embarrassment for me as a Malaysian, who used to be really proud with Malaysian Airlines (MAS). If MAS Airlines are to be compared with RBA, our food are nothing as compared to RBA's food that serve Thai food and etc, where their menus change everyday, as well as being served with delicious & fulling food. Where the food served in MAS are just Fish and Chips or Curry Chicken Rice.

After dinner, we went to chill at "The Chill" located outside the Gadong Mall. Very fortunate for us to meet John Brunei there... Well, it had been a really long time that we do not meet.. He always came down to Miri last year to our house and chill with us.

The so called John Brunei

After coming back from "The Chill", I finally went to Maxxx's house and finally been to his room. I stole one of his photo when he was young.. Hehe!!! I told him only when I had arrived Miri.... Met all Maxxx's family members and finally met his young & cute niece, Nadia... :) daughter to Abang Hairol & Kak Layla. I was playing with Nadia the next morning when I just woke up, while Maxxx was out with his dad & mom... She is so Hyper & CUTE!!!!

Anyway, that's all my updates regarding my trip to Brunei. :)

Off to Brunei again

2008-07-25T08:08:00.001+08:00

I'll be off to Brunei again today, with Ardhie, Maxxx and Kim Seng.. tomorrow will be my day to perform and yet I'm not prepared. Sigh. Wish me luck..